A Preface

*sigh* There seem to be so many things I cannot explain. So many feelings I cannot quite put words to. Understandings that I can take no further. Worse, the harder I try the more frustrated and unhappy I become. But I'm going to try. I am going to stumble around these most pressing of topics and then post them here, on my blog, in the vain, desperate hope that someone will read and understand. That someone somewhere can at the very least point me in the direction I need to go to figure this stuff out And before anyone states the obvious, no, therapy is not an option. Believe me if I could afford it (I have no health insurance) I am desperate enough now that I would already be looking for a good therapist.