I don't know if I can go back...

I don't know if I can go back. It's probably just the poor timing as far as this whole mess is concerned. I was already feeling shoddy. And then... then you jumped all over me for deleting a thread. How was I supposed to know that it is not kosher there? Especially when the same feature is standard on just about all message boards and no one yells at you for deleting a thread on those. All you had to do was tell me that it isn't something that is done there. That's all. Very easy. One, maybe two sentences tops. Instead you immediately started talking down to me. And then when I expressed confusion, not at what you were telling me, I never once disagreed with you there, told you that you were wrong... I was just confused as to why you were jumping all over me. But instead of listening to me, instead of reading and processing that... you saw something else. I suppose it was my fault, in some ways. I definitely shouldn't have been so sarcastic as I was. I bite, when I'm feeling lousy and then someone pokes at me. And instead of trying to bring you back to what I was saying... well, yeah, I just got sarcastic. I didn't try and explain, I responded to what you were writing which had very little to do with the point I was trying to make, the confusion I was feeling. And you started reacting to my attitude, my sarcasm. And you started getting mean. How many times did you allude to the fact that you think I am immature (references to 16 year old's, 'wondering' why you would have to be explaining this to an adult)? How many times did you accuse me of deleting that thread as 'punishment' or insinuate that I had some malicious intent when I told you time and again that was not the case? You called me a liar at least once (used the word 'feigned' though I cannot remember the rest of the sentence and I cannot bring myself to look through any more of that mess to find it). You made me sound like a horrible, insensitive person and I am not. You were mean.

I don't know if I can go back to that. I don't know... You hurt me, very badly. I... I can't figure out what I want to say but... I don't know.